Ire_land

Mary and I

Johnny,

Yes, you do deserve better than this slothful correspondent. Interesting question? Am I, or you, or anybody else for that matter, looking backwards or forwards.

Well, I guess we inevitably drag our past around with us, except that some people are better at overcoming its effects, or these effects were not sufficiently traumatic to leave scars. My past is a big muddle, not at all resolved I would say, mostly because of conflict with my father when I was an adolescent. Otherwise, I imagine there were happy moments, but on the whole I would say that most people who grew up in post war Ireland were seriously traumatised by religious oppression, the awful climate, the widespread poverty and fucked-up politics of the time. Outside of that I had a wonderful time at university and met a handful of people who are still part of my life...to be more realistic, maybe one or two, as one died, another was involved in the Irish equivalent of the Parmalat scam and the trauma was of tsunami dimensions...etc. etc.

It is regrettable that your creative vein inevitably leads back to your fixation with anal sex. Regrettable insofar as it would be more satisfactory for you to be in touch with like-minded people. Surely it can't be difficult to establish contact with these folk over the web. Where I am concerned, eroticism is invariably surrounded by an aura of mystery and nuance...I feel your over explicit depictions of sex rob it of any erotic connotations. Rather a shame!

With regard to friendship. I reckon it is increasinly difficult to nurture friendships in this day and age. There is so much change in the air and people feel so threatened, if by nothing else than the predominance of rampant consumerism, that it is very difficult to give and trust uncritically.

Jasmin........your half peach in syrup